May 2013
Anonymous asked: Why the star?
Anonymous asked: Is that you in the bathroom with him?
Anonymous asked: i love your drawings (from dowaji)~
Anonymous asked: he's hot
I look really awkward when I dance.
I look even thinner and taller and my limbs look extra long so everything looks really awkward. Like sticks were just attached together and moving. I don’t know how to make myself look graceful. I can’t get over the fact that I look and feel like a giant.
I don’t think I was made to be a dancer.
Dancing stresses me out. I’m so...
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Anonymous asked: holy shit you look just like raina
justgetlays asked: OMG WHAT AM I WEARING IN THAT PICTURE. ITS LIKE SOME PRINCE OUTFIT
Anonymous asked: IS THAT YOU LOL
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Anonymous asked: Do you have any other pictures with your boyfriend?
Anonymous asked: your boyfriend seems sweet. what do you like about him?
Anonymous asked: can you tell us the full story how you got with your boyfriend? :)
Anonymous asked: thank you for always sharing us your thoughts. When I read your posts, I feel that I can learn from them...whether its about cats or to emotions. thanks :)
dad?
My mom and I usually get a lot of phone calls from someone who doesn’t say anything. It’s really creepy and our home phone doesn’t have caller ID so we just always pick it up when we’re home.
But yesterday, an unknown number called my cell. Usually, I ignored unknowns or numbers not saved in my contacts but I just picked it up. As expected, no one answered when I said...
Anonymous asked: did you guys kiss yet? ;)
Anonymous asked: Yay! I am happy for you :)
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Anonymous asked: does your boyfriend have a tumblr?
yay i has a boipren
So basically, we both thought each other thought of each other as just friends. I thought he only saw me as a friend and he thought I just saw him as a friend. SIGH, WE’RE BOTH DENSE HAHA. But everything is okay now because now we’re together. Yaaaay~
Wow how many years has it been since I’ve had a boyfriend. Like 3 years? It feels so different though because we’ve been...
Anonymous asked: Dear Misa: Love yourself. Start by accepting and forgiving yourself, your flaws, and your past mistakes. Accept the fact that you will make mistakes. Move on. These are what I'm trying to do now. And then depend on God. Love yourself and you will gain confidence. You have to accept who you are as a person before you love anybody else. I used to hate myself and always thought I was worthless....
life happened
I woke up at 1:30am for no fucking reason and I can’t seem to go back to sleep so here I am trying to organize my thoughts once again.
I seriously think I have the nastiest personality like I can flip 180 in a second and make someone feel like dirt. I mean, I don’t do it often but there are some things that trigger it and even though some people might be like, “Oh, that’s...
conclusion
I think it’s best if I try to keep some distance. And even if I feel a bit of pain, it wouldn’t be as bad.
I’m trying to do the right thing. I’m really trying hard to keep what we have. Except I’m thinking way too hard about this all so doing the right thing is so hard to do. And it doesn’t help that everything he says, even if he’s just being the nice person he is like 110% of the time, I get like KDSLA;HIEKFDL;G
I’m so scared I’m gonna mess everything up....
I want to dominate him.
DOES THAT SOUND WEIRD?
I don’t know how else to put it into words.
Okay, I’m not dense, I have never thought of myself as dense. I definitely know when boys like me but everything is just too foggy. Maybe it’s this uncertainty that makes me so restless and doubtful.
It’s really late and I’m super sleepy so I shouldn’t even be...
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Sometimes, I wish for something to cry about. Like I wish really, really hard that it becomes like a prayer. And then something really does happen, like it was my finger this time. And I just make it seem like I’m crying over my finger when really, I’m crying about everything.
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I tend to rip myself away from people when I feel like I’m starting to become too dependent on them. It’s so fucked up and it’s the worst thing I can do to myself. But when my entire happiness is depended on someone, when I’m so happy I’m with them and so sad when I’m not, it scares me.
I don’t think I deserve to have any friends. How can anyone stand me.
toothpaste
I live quite a lonely life.
It’s like I don’t have enough love in me so I have to save what I have left and use it sparingly. It’s like I have all these tubes inside of me, like toothpaste. I’ve been given a tube for everything and how much I have of something differs in other people because we are all different. I was probably given like 10 tubes of love but 100 tubes of...
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just a lot of shit
They say home is where the heart is.
Where is my heart though?
I just always assumed it was in New York because that’s the place that seemed brightest and happiest in all my 20 years, almost 21, of my life. And California’s the place where I turned into this dark, lonely monster. I struggled with making friends for years, endured my father’s abuse, [[MORE]]survived my...
My insides die because I want to text him so bad but I remember that’s the main reason all my past boyfriends have dumped me was because I was so needy.
I’m learning! This is progress!
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WTF WERE YOU EXPECTING
Mom: -steals my chocolate-
Mom: EW WHY IS IT SO SWEET
So at work there’s these drawers with a lot of keys in them for the lockers. I hand each member of our gym a locker (if they want one) and put their member card in the slot of the key they took. And before they leave, they trade the key for their card.
The drawers are really heavy and they open and close really fast. A month or so ago my thumb got caught while it was closing and my nail...
sweet tooth
I’ve been taking in a lot of sugar these days. Two bars of chocolate, a bag of candy, slice of cake, ice cream, and a lot of pastries all in a week.
My mom’s getting really worried because when she asked what was wrong I told her, “I need some sweets in my life to take away the bitterness.” I was pretty much joking but like taking the truth and joking. I didn’t mean...
i just need to compliment myself sometimes.
blessakim:
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(part 2)…(kind of)…….. (maybe not really)
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I’ve been gifted with so many things and I now realize why I had such a long checklist to be interested in someone. (But then again, not really because I always feel really shitty whenever I like someone.) Because I’m so talented in all these things, I just wanted to be with someone who would be able...
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Kim Jang Hoon, also known as PSY’ mentor, is coming to the gym I work at today. I think they’re planning a flash mob somewhere here so all these kids came in with their Korean drums and stuff.
Would it be tacky to ask him for a picture haha. I’m not really his fan or anything though.
He took a picture with me~ I was just quiet while he was taking pictures with other people but he...
Kim Jang Hoon, also known as PSY’ mentor, is coming to the gym I work at today. I think they’re planning a flash mob somewhere here so all these kids came in with their Korean drums and stuff.
Would it be tacky to ask him for a picture haha. I’m not really his fan or anything though.
maybe i've grown?
I used to have this check list of what I liked in a guy before I’d consider him. It used to include things like pretty boy, taller and older than me, stylish, rich, etc.
But I don’t think any of that is important anymore. I’d just like to like a really kind and wise person. Someone who’s selfless and always ready to help someone out. It wouldn’t matter if he’s...
i just need to compliment myself sometimes.
[[MORE]]I think I’m a pretty awesome person. Seriously, how am I not great. I sew, crochet, knit, bake and cook, and do all these feminine stuff. But I’m also pretty shameless and I don’t get embarrassed when I fart among friends or when I say penis in all languages. I’m pretty fun to be with (when i’ve known you for some time) and I think I’m hilarious....
It’s so painfully obvious.
Everyone in the world knows it.
Except him.
I don’t understand how it’s possible for a straight guy to be so immune to girls.
It’s so strange, it seems like I’m in like with him one day and just friends another.
I just have a feeling that all this isn’t going to end well and I’m going to lose all the friends I have.
this bitch never read the book
girl: OMG I'M SO EXCITED FOR THE GREAT GATSBY!
fob: i heard the book was good but i've never read it...
girl: i read it in high school
fob: what is it about?
girl: i don't remember..............
Kids sneezing is probably one of the cutest things in the world and will never fail to make me smile.
I don’t like fighting with my boyfriend. If I had one, that is. People say a few small fights here and there are good but I don’t like it.
I think in all my short, past relationships, whenever a fight would start, I would just stop arguing, give up my view, and apologize right away. It’s pretty bad, I know. But I just never learned how to talk things through because my entire...
I really wonder how some people can decide on marriage with someone they’ve been with for just a few months. Does dating feel different as you age? Or do you just want to hurry up and get married because of your age? Or after years of experience with dating, you just have a “good feeling” about someone?
My group leader’s getting married and I’m pretty sure at most...
I’ve always been really good at drawing the line for friendship.
So I’m really confused to why I’m the one that crossed it this time.
But when he mentioned another girl for the first time I realized it’s possible that one day the seat next to his will be reserved by somebody else.
I guess I’ve always kind of liked him. I’m just realizing it now.
But it kind...
love-perseveres asked: Most difficult and important step is to first love yourself.
Anonymous asked: which Nikon model do you have? (it looks like a D3100) because i got a D3100 for Christmas and when I took pictures and looked at them at the LCD screen, they looked perfectly fine and the brightness was normal. but when i saw them on my laptop they were reaallly dull and gray looking, with a pretty low brightness. so i returned it. do you happen to know what causes that? the picture file format...
I do this fucked up thing to myself whenever I play with the chance of someone possibly liking me. I start listing things about myself that would make all possibility of a human being to be attracted to me fall to 0 and I end up hating myself.
It really sucks.
I end up crying LOL.
